Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Same Old Dawn...

So I take this deliberate stance to be detached from politics. But, you know what they say...politics is everywhere around you, everything you touch, everything you hear and say...

And in this great country of ours, politics touches you in every way. That's the way it is. And that's the truth.

That is why I was full of anticipation, anguish, pain, ache, joy, sorrow during days, hours and moments before September 16.

But, the 16th day of the ninth month of this year, the day that Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim promised to seize for that was to have been his BIG day when he would chart history and history would have been MADE!

Anwar was going to be Prime Minister.

But...ALAS... it was not to be. September 16 came and went as fleetingly as any other day save a few high intensity happenings. In Malaysia it is nothing short of high intensity and sometimes, high velocity.

And why was I not surprised that September 16 was not to be fro brother Anwar?

Because nothing can be that easy to achieve, even for one as clever as Anwar.
It was simply tooo gooood to be true.

Taking over the reigns of power cannot be a picnic. Cannot be easy. Cannot be so damn easy.

So, I'd like to advice the likes of Anwar and PM wannabes.....you have to do it the RIGHT way.

You cannot pay off people to join you. Damn those MPs. That ain't no democracy in progress. That's corruption, babe.

Tsk tsk, brother Anwar...you should be practicing what you've been preaching.

And damn if I have to put up with those corrupt 30 or so MPs. You're the people's representatives, for God's sake!.

Let me make my exit for I am but a humble blogger who knows not much about politics..I'll stick to writing about my love and sex life and Antonio, anytime.

And so, we have the same old same old dawn.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

What's Infidelity To You?

My problem with Antonio is our definition of what infidelity is.

To him, being unfaithful is if the partner sleeps with another person/persons, or have a any form of physical relationship with another person/persons.

In his book, there is no such thing as an emotional relationship without a physical relationship. But a physical relationship can exist without an emotional one.

In my book, anything goes.

In my book, being unfaithful is having ANY KIND of relationship with another person/persons, be it physical or emotional or both.

To Antonio, going for coffee/latte or meeting up for dinner with a woman is harmless and "don't mean a damn thing".

Sms-ing, emailing, facebooking with other females does not constitute infidelity, even though those messages carry intimate tones. And to females unknown to me.

It does not mean that he does not love me, he avers. The heart is strong for me. Yeah, yeah. It's not like he was going to take anyone to bed, you see.

To me....it always starts somewhere -- an innocent coffee, lunch or dinner. An innocent car-ride, an innocent anything.

It always starts with something so innocent and innocuous.

I have seen too many relationships start from that innocent something.

I suppose he thinks differently. He thinks he's like no other and cannot get easily tempted.

However, the trouble with Antonio is that while he believes that all this is innocent, he can be quite a teaser, a flirt.

Does he realize that he is, I wonder.

Would you call other women "baby" or "babe"? "Luv", I can understand.

So, I find that sometimes Antonio's intimacy is not exclusive to me. That bothers me.

Because I am not like that.

I don't know whether I have such high expectations from a man who is incapable of understanding my commitment and conviction.

He thinks that what is important is that he loves me -- so don't doubt him.

Fair enough, you think?

I think not.....

*****sorry for the long absence from blogging. I have been away.....